week 12 day 4

Why have I been up since 2 am?  Oh yeah, because that nasty pregnancy RLS is back and it's back with a vengeance. 

I'm exhausted most of the day on most days yet I wake up in the middle of the night, unable to sleep.  In fact, when I went to sleep 6 hours ago, I knew it wouldn't last.  I told myself that as soon as I woke up and didn't feel too tired, I had to get up and edit photos.  Because if I don't do it during the middle of the night, I won't do it at all.

So it's over 2 1/2 hours later, I finished one batch of photos, read blogs, read the news, got upset at some lady who said that people should adopt within the states, not internationally, and now I'm blogging.  I should finish more photos but I don't feel tired so I figure I'll do it in a little bit.

I honestly can't believe we've made it to 12 weeks already.  This has flown by already which makes me nervous for the next 2 trimesters. 

I tell Mike all the time how different this pregnancy is to the first.  The first one, each day was slow and a little bit torturous.  I was so excited to have a baby that I just couldn't wait for each day to pass.  Now that I have a baby and a million other things going on in my life, I don't have time to count each day.  In fact, whole days can pass without me remembering that I'm pregnant.  Well, I guess that was more true for a few weeks ago.  Now that I'm definitely starting to show, I've become more aware of who I'm around and whether I need to try to suck in or not.  But it's getting more difficult to suck in. 

Tuesday, tomorrow, is my next doctor's appointment.  Hopefully everything is going well and if so, Mike and I may begin to tell people.  But I'm pretty sure we won't.  We're just going to let the awkward questions come rolling through ... because how awkward is it to ask someone if they're pregnant?  Very awkward.  Because what if they aren't?  Then it's just offensive.

Anyway, I hope I can figure out a way to subside my RLS.  With the first pregnancy, it was perfectly fine if I was awake most of the night because I usually didn't have anywhere to be the next day.  I got my work done in the middle of the night and then would nap from 9 am - 2 pm.  Unfortunately, I can no longer do that.  Not with a little babes who needs tending.

Speaking of the babes, I'm really excited for her to have a little sibling.  She loves babies.  She will point them out to me, sometimes running up to them, and then do her little sign/motion, telling me how much she likes it.  She's not to the stage where she's really nurturing to her stuffed animals, although she loves to tuck them in for naps, but I'm sure she'll get there ... and I'm excited!