week 38 day 2

It's still crazy to me that I'm at week 38. Where has pregnancy gone? I mean, really. I feel like the first 7 months or so went by so slowly but I really wish I would've taken more time to relax and not be so anxious to get to this point. Plus the time probably would've gone by faster if I hadn't been so anxious. May flew by just like I expected it to because of planning an event for work, moving, and Hawaii ... and then trying to recover from all of those things.

This morning Mike got up to get ready for work and I was determined to just stay in bed until he was ready to eat breakfast. We stayed up late talking and then I had woken up several times during the night feeling really sick to my stomach only to realize after I had more consciousness that it was just contractions - so I was really tired. But as soon as Mike got up and left the room, I received a huge kick right into my ribs. And the oddest part was that she just kept going. I finally was able to push her little leg down a little bit away from my ribs. I thought that they were supposed to kick quite a bit up until about week 30-32. Then they start getting so big that they are running out of room so they can't kick as well but they can still move quite a bit. Apparently Katie believes that she can still kick me pretty good and she definitely proves it.

With all of these contractions and pressure and such, I keep feeling like she really could come any day now but maybe she'll wait until the induction date. I just don't understand how my body is still handling her - my back aches, my muscles around my uterus ache, my feet and hands are swollen, and she seems to continue growing but I don't. Plus with the contractions, I can just imagine poor Katie every time they occur as she gets squished even more into her cramped living space.

Mike and I have been trying to guess when we think she'll come. My dates are (I get three options because ... well, I just do) June 26, July 6, and July 12. Mike's guess is July 6. We'll put a little survey gadget thing on our blog so the three of you who read this can also make a guess because who doesn't like guessing and even better, guessing correctly?

week 31 day 5

Last night was the worst night of pregnancy thus far. I had so much back pain and so much pain just above my uterus that I nearly broke down during a staff training. The rest of the evening I laid on the couch grunting every time I had to move at all. Mike was nice enough to give me a couple of massages but they never last long because I get too ticklish.

Today I'm feeling much better. I have pain but most of my back pain is gone. I'm not sure if I actually want her to, but I told Katie last night that if she is ready and wants to come out in a couple of weeks, I'd be fine with that. The pain just gets way too much for me to handle sometimes and I feel bad that I'm blaming her.

week 9 day 5

Today I found out my supervisor is pregnant as well but with twins! Yikes! I think anyone who has twins is truly amazing. I don't know if I could do it.

Yesterday was a very scary day. In the morning, I suddenly got really bad abdominal pains which made me just want to crash on the couch for a few hours. However, I was on campus with Mike and once I got home, I had a bunch of work stuff to do so I couldn't take a nap for very long. Just as I was falling asleep, despite all the pain, I received a phone call and had to take it. But miraculously, all the pain went away and it was no longer a scary day. I'm sure it was just my body working really hard ... thank you body for being able to do this for us!

I have been craving cheeseburgers like nothing since I've been pregnant which is weird because I don't like fast food. In fact, within a few months of dating Mike, I got him off of liking fast food as well. Now we almost always prefer a nice sit-down place that's more expensive over the clogged arteries that a juicy hamburger from McDonald's could cause.

But not anymore. I will take a little cheeseburger from Five Guys with a side of cajun fries any day! Mmmm ...

Speaking of fat, I've gained quite a few pounds in the past couple of months. Last night when I weighed myself, I weighed more than I ever have before which is okay with me because let's be honest, I love food and my body loves the nutrients. I'm just hoping all of this quick weight gain doesn't mean twins. Not that they wouldn't be wonderful but really? Little me with twins? I don't think so.

Oh, and since I haven't been great at writing since the vacation last week, I've been really cranky as anyone who's encountered me probably knows. The biggest problem is that I recognize that this isn't like me. And maybe it's not so much cranky as much as I tell people how I feel and I don't really care how it comes out. Ugh. It's awful.

Not only that but I cry a lot. I cry at the simplest things. But I'm grateful for that. It helps me remember that I do have a soft side.